The "You've never been able to" comment stung a little, but only because it it hit closer to home that Ered wanted it to.
He would never force Merlin to do anything about Arthur, even if their feelings could jeopardize the entire operation. He had loved and lost before. It was a pain that he never wanted to feel again. And yet, he had married, and now had a child. It was like he was forcing himself to remember. She was a human, and so was the child of his loins. They would get old, and they would die, and he would lose them as well.
Ered shook those thoughts away. He had to take his own advice and put away feelings for the moment.
"I cannot tell you what to do about the way you feel about Arthur. It is a conclusion that you must come to yourself." He watched Merlin stand up and tracked him as he paced and talked.
"I can tell you that there are knights who you are close to, and you will feel pain, and you will feel loss. It is something that you have to compartmentalize for yourself. Even if you do decide to change Arthur's feelings, you must change your own as well, ans that cannot be done with any spell or cantrip."
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Date: 2019-02-18 08:33 pm (UTC)He would never force Merlin to do anything about Arthur, even if their feelings could jeopardize the entire operation. He had loved and lost before. It was a pain that he never wanted to feel again. And yet, he had married, and now had a child. It was like he was forcing himself to remember. She was a human, and so was the child of his loins. They would get old, and they would die, and he would lose them as well.
Ered shook those thoughts away. He had to take his own advice and put away feelings for the moment.
"I cannot tell you what to do about the way you feel about Arthur. It is a conclusion that you must come to yourself." He watched Merlin stand up and tracked him as he paced and talked.
"I can tell you that there are knights who you are close to, and you will feel pain, and you will feel loss. It is something that you have to compartmentalize for yourself. Even if you do decide to change Arthur's feelings, you must change your own as well, ans that cannot be done with any spell or cantrip."